by Christian LeBlanc » Sun Nov 15, 2009 2:54 am
I've had similar experiences before, and am very grateful at how, not only therapeutic making music can feel, but how you can end up taking something awful (the way you're feeling) and produce something that other people can enjoy.
I can totally relate to what you mean by honest-sounding, too; once in a while, it's as if emotion gets automatically converted to sound (like some bizarre midi conversion!).
I really like the music you shared here. To me, it sounds good, so I can't critique it (other than, I'm assuming this was done on an electric piano instead of a 'real' one, in which case I'd like to hear it done again on a real one). I'll raise this issue, at least: you say you were feeling depressed when you came up with this, but there's definitely a few passages in here that sound full of hope. I'm wondering if you started feeling better as you were coming up with it, comforted by the music and being able to express yourself, and that's how the hopeful bits crept in?
Sorry for sounding so new-agey. It's late and I'm tired, that's my excuse. I'll deny all of this in the morning :)